family therapy
I've got a solo session with the family therapist tomorrow
I've been feeling like crap thinking about it for the past few days, just cause it's coming up. It's not like I even have to deal with my parents there... just the reminder that it's a thing is enough. Not sleeping well for other reasons also hasn't helped
I went on a run today and that was nice. Felt like I had things under control with run endorphins, but then felt super tired after. Also saw this which started making me tear up and think about my grandma.
I don't actually want to stop talking to my parents. I want them to get their stuff together and like, be empathetic.
A couple of therapy sessions ago my dad was being a jerk and said something along the lines of "but I have opinions? Am I supposed to just hold them back and never say anything?" in sort of a... ugh sort of way where he was daring us to challenge him about holding his opinions back.
Half tempted to go tell him he's free to decide if he's made the right choice about that on his deathbed. If he wants to decide that his opinions are more important than the relationships in his life, he's free to chose that. The relationships are also free to leave him.
"Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents" maybe another potential reading thing. Maybe will suggest it to the therapist/parents and see how that goes, idk.
I feel a little bad for my mom being at the crossfire of things, but not wholly so. She's not nearly as bad as my dad and tries and doesn't get it but also is repeatedly oblivious to how much damage she's causing.
"They're not evil, just incompetent and prefer to remain wholly oblivious to how incompetent they are, even while people are pointing to the damage they're causing"
Man I'm also oddly busy tomorrow too. That'll also be interesting.