m.makes.musings

feeling creeped on

well i'm happy i've got this blog

lots of my other internet presence has my real name on it.

as i found out during therapy last week, apparently the parent i dislike more has been stalking my social media

on one hand it's understandable. on the other hand ugh

the particular form of entitlement and just idk. boomer holier-than-thou, "there's no rule against it so of course i can do whatever i want" boundary pushing is just

i've been toying with the idea of making a public post about taking my parents to family therapy for a while and largely had been holding off cause i didn't want to deal with the backlash

and also as, you know, a way of keeping it quiet just how crappy my parents have been as parents to a broader audience so you know, assuming things worked out, they wouldn't have to deal with that

but i dunno. starting to fantasize now about writing that post and straight up sending it to all of their social contacts

i can't tell if it's actually a good idea or not (seems like probably not?) but they were complaining about how "embarrassing" it was to have folks ask how i was doing and not knowing what to say. i can save them the embarrassment of having to explain by making folks not want to reach out to them in the first place...


it was briefly referenced towards the end of last session that parents might also have some sort of health thing going on

they were both more on edge in the last session than they'd been before so i'm inclined to believe it's maybe real

i also don't like my mom being sad so when my mom was sad i was trying to be a little more accommodating to be supportive of her

the more i think about it though, the more i'm a little... well, it's as much on them to solve the problem before they die and if they don't want to make amends with the time they've got left in their life... well, they can live with their decisions.