the hard thing about writing
...at least on the main blog is I don't really feel like I'm writing for myself.
I feel like things there have to be 95% good cause it'll be watched and will reflect on me. It's got the projection of all of my anxieties and fears and how I'll be cornered into a thing...
...it also maybe doesn't help that the way that I write sometimes - at least these days - is a little more gruff + flamey, cause that's maybe what I've been reading. If I'm not careful, I'm going to start picking up twitter or lesswrong or whatever other bay area writing style.
I don't think this blog is all me either. Maybe idk, 70% right, cause it's mostly my sorta sleep-dep'd feeling meh ramblies. It definitely hits true + vulnerable and more of the "ahhhhhhhh I need to taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalk somewhere to sooooooooomeone" feelings, but I dunno.